Another Summer!

I'd like to say that I'm hopping for a nice warm, sunny summer.. but the real truth is I'm torn on this. Now that being said, I will explain...lol

I want it to be hot, hot, with sunshine everyday so we can use the pool which we just got filled today. It keeps Jacob and I busy, splashing each other, having swimming races, silly stuff like that. And its great exercise for someone with painful joints cause it isn't jarring movements in water.



On the other side of this dilemma is the fact that those of us with Lupus aren't suppose to expose ourselves to the sun. Personally I break out in sores from the sunshine. They get itchy, I dig at them, which only makes them worse.. but its like a mosquito bite itchy, it just doesn't stop! So its kind of hard to dawn a bathing suit and get into a pool without being in the sun, especially when you use the sun to heat the water in the pool....lol Is the dilemma clear now....lol



Its a double edge sword. Like most things with this disease, we are limited by our bodies. We have to weigh out the pros and cons and make an informed decision as to what we will do. After much thought, its going to be a pool party everyday because I want to have fun. I'm tired of not being able to do a lot of things that I use to enjoy, like certain foods I can't eat anymore, not being able to have a drink of alcohol, not being able to smoke, not being able to work, not being able to physically do things like,,get down on my knees and wash the baseboards in the house, or even to run.. not that I was ever a jogger...lol but if someone is chasing me, they wouldn't have a problem catching me now a days...lol



Limits, those are the things that the disease puts on us, they aren't something that we put on ourselves. And if I tend to think about them too much, I get really pissed off. So sometimes I ignore my body, I do what I want with no limits attached.. of course the consequences of my actions I will have to deal with later on,, but sometimes we just have to go about our job of living, living the best we can with what we have been given.. for me, its enjoying the sunshine and fun in the pool. I hope everyone has fun living this summer!